when i used to make myself throw up i got little red dots around my eyes that stayed with me for weeks. they're here again, but not from forced vomiting, but rater from drinking too much. i stopped throwing up because it's bad for me, and obviously alcohol is too. both seem to benefit me in some way, but why stop one if i don't stop the other? so i guess this is good-bye to good times and hello to the sad, cruel world of nondrinking.

i will be oh so lonely tonight.