my life is overrun with memories and feelings of extreme sadness or extreme happiness. i feel like my heart is dying in some strange way, but being reborn to something better... my heart can handle this, i am strong.

sometimes i feel like i'm alone. and then i realise- i am alone. i have a boyfriend and a best friend, but what does it mean? i appreciate them, of course, but in the end it doesn't matter...

nothing matters.

i guess it's time for a layout change. but not much of one, because in reality, who likes change?