i'm the worst student. i skipped all of my classes today so that i could sleep in. while matt was showering and getting ready for his, i was sleeping through all of mine. the poor boy, he had to wake me up and see the expression of disgust on my face. of course he says it's 'exceptionally cute', but what does he know?

last night he and i walked to the gas station so i could get cigarettes. i bought some oreos and a cherry coke as well and that was nice. we sat behind the dentist office (the DO!) and shared the oreos and i drank the coke. smoking with him is nice because he holds my hand with one and smokes with the other...

natalie and i went to the park the other day and stalked this guy matt knows that i know called mike. it was fun and mike is korean. matt's only half korean. i like going to the park with natalie. i wish i could talk her into doing cartwheels with me.

everything looks different at night.

matt is applying for loans. i have loans. we're doing this together. that makes me happy... i'm glad i have him. he says i make him really happy. i hope that's true. he makes me incredibly happy too. we hug every night and he has good lips for kissing.

i can't tell you any more... it's a secret.